Sunday, November 25, 2018
I miss my Dad. I wish we had more time together. Especially when I was trying to see him towards the end of his journey here on earth with us. There are things that will always be regretted and there will always be that 'what if' until we meet again one day. I honestly wish that things could have, and would have, been said and spoken about between us before it was too late. I have lived every day sense he was moved too the hospital in Burt, N.Y., even before that, wishing, hoping and praying that things would be ok, and that there were more 'I Love You's' said..... I wish there was even just 1 more, an apology from both of us and that 1 last 'I Love You' said between us. I miss him every day. I pray for him every day, just like I pray for all my departed loved ones that I miss so very much. But, he was my father, my dad.... My daddy. He is sadly missed so very much and there will be that hole in my ❤ heart until we see each other again and say those words to each other.
If things were easier, circumstances were different, those regrets wouldn't weigh so heavy in my mind and on my ❤ heart!
Just remember to tell your loved ones EVERY DAY that you Love them, that you are proud of them. Make the effort to see them, no matter what. If you can't see them, call. Just hearing those voices and hearing and acknowledging that love, and regret if there is any, makes a world of difference in daily lives. There will never be a chance for that with my dad and myself, and I wish I would have fought harder to get to him! I wish i would have just gone from place to place, vs just calling place to place to find him.... Because things would be different for us.
The point is, my dad may have been quirky, a bit odd too some people, but he was so very smart and he was, is, and will always be My Daddy! I love you dad! I apologize for my part in anything that went wrong between us, I am so sorry I didnt try harder to push you into making up. I pray you are not in anymore pain. I pray that you can think clearly now that you aren't on all that mind altering medication and fighting those awful desieses! I know you are with Auntie Née Née & Uncle Keith, Gram 'Ma', Grandpa and all our loved ones whom have passed over to be with our Heavenly Father. I also pray that my CoCo Snickers is there by your side too love you for me until I get there with all of you!
God Bless
